sewn to the sky

whoa

i haven't posted for almost one week

it was 

a very hard week

monday night

struggling to get everything done

tuesday night

struggling to get everything done

wednesday 

went to zoo with viscom class to draw. drawing pacing animals is hard. saw birds, monkeys, apes, giraffes and elephants with a handful of classmates. had lunch at the alcove with B, K, and J. i had a vegan wrap and we all shared two cakes. After, i took a two hour nap at K's and headed to C's class. always inspirational. also, i need to pick J's brain. she is packed full of good talent and information. she is also incredibly honest and i like that.

thursday

woke up early to check out dynamic illustration midterm and run errands. bought various papers at paper source and browsed through books at Cliff's books for some ideas.  bought a nicely bounded book (hope to re-use and re-bound for later), and a nice cursive book. i use a calligraphy pen often and need to brush up on my script. Went to south campus to work on solidworks. my god, every second of using this software is painful for me. later on, had thai dinner with A.

friday

what a long long long long day. i woke up at 5:30 am to pick up K, M, T, and B by 7:00 in pasadena. We were to meet at the Mojave desert at 9:00 am for our materials class. nice drive, played word games and 20 questions. Mojave is desolate, but lovely. i think a nice place for sketching. had a tour through the mojave airport looking at a variety of incredible aircrafts. Had lunch at NASA, and a three hour long tour through the facilities. tiresome yet at times, interesting. i enjoyed their "flight loads laboratory" who had a nasa-man explain the lab in his bobby kennedy accent (which i thought was attractive). headed home around 4, had a long conversation with M (for the first time) during the drive.  all in all, worthwhile.

also

the heads graphics department instructor came on the tour with us and brought his entire family. i've never seen a family so blond, so chic, so beautiful in real life. i kept staring. german. i've never encountered so many amazing germans till i entered art center. they are an amazing kind.

reading

culture code. so good 

you could have done better but i don't mind

friday and on

friday morning. god, i felt horrible. by late afternoon, i felt better. maybe i needed a little bit of social contact. i don't know. we went to le pain for dinner and sketching. K and A gave me friendly (yet, some hard to hear) advices about, you know. love, happiness, life etc.

today

fashion district with K to explore product ideas. korean food midday, and south campus solid work session in the evening.

it could have been so beautiful 

once in awhile

maybe once or twice a month, i get really sad. with no reasons. im struck with overwhelming tiredness and i sleep all day long and wake up feeling more sad. its days like this that feel so black and still, and it taste like hospital food. bland, cold, and colorless. i know i will feel better soon. maybe tomorrow.

you wanted me to be, above all things, untamable

tomorrow

going to the sustainability summit. all day. 

tonight

running maybe

now let it go

for valentines day

explored Bergmont Station (a good side perk for visiting Hiromi), went to watch a musical with N and friends. 

this morning

im off to a coffee shop to sketch. i think i'll make it a morning ritual. later, my uncle comes from korea. 

you just wanted to prove there was one safe place, just one safe place where you could love him

the week

good, uneventful and yet eventful. as usual. had good chats with various instructors that were insightful and also a meeting with our department chair about the japan tama art university exchange program that i am interested in.

friday

ah, yesterday. a laborious day of computers and materials. after, had curry dinner with A, K, D (k's bf), and a surprising appearance from J. after browsing a couple shops we went to le pain and gorged ourselves with pastries (omg), cafe au lait, and bread and played a seriously intense game of pictionary (which ended up being littered with too many x-rated references). after the game, R met us, and we all drove to the brewery for a IDSA (Industrial Designers Society of America) get together. the brewery is so awesome. a big collection of beautiful buildings overflowing with artists and art everywhere! we walked up narrow steep stairs to the fourth floor with a gorgeous view of the LA skyline and train tracks that all disappeared into the horizon. drank lots of cheap chuck wine and had a chat fest. i was tired.

valentines

k bought me a chocolate flower. he is so sweet. its a shame he likes men. i secretly enjoy valentines, even for a perpetually single female. a day of excessive chocolates and flowers is ok by me. 

today

i am off to the school library for research, and heading towards santa monica to visit a paper store for my stationary project. N invited me to a musical for valentines later in the evening.

i am the least difficult of men. all i want is boundless love

today, wednesday night

great day today. i slept a full 9 hours and my mind feels fresh and awake. went to the natural history museum in the morning and class in the evening. i am having itty bitty breakthroughs. i can't really ask for much more. theres a handful of people in my life that drives me to be better. amazing, magnificent people!

nothing comes from nothing. nothing ever could

sunday 

do you ever wake up from a dream so real that you wake up sad wishing it were? i get that a lot. 

weather

fantastic. very moody in behavior

friday recap

had food with some school buds in arcadia after class. spent some time in cmtel going over our tuesday presentation. I felt okay about it till yesterday, now i feel completely lost and confused.

reoccurring question

what am i doing? i ask that a lot. in various levels of frustrations and unfrustrations, and also dabbled with a slew of curses when necessary.

for here you are standing here loving me. whether or not you should. 

hello.

hi & hey world. a tired week. but a good week. i've been mostly happy  (but i can emotionally change and warp within a matter of seconds). im trying hard to separate my tumblr  and blog, but in many cases, it all seems to mesh together. 

in any case

i am utilizing all my powers of what i've learned  and applying it to this term. i am a lot more relaxed and surprisingly organized. i've never thought of my life in terms of "lessons." but in extreme circumstances, those "lessons" become more transparent- i am thankful for this.

also,

i feel continually grateful for the amazing people in my life. they really drive me. to be better in all regards. they make me laugh, and make life worthwhile.

don't try to run after time. time's getting on, time's over now

friday

fridays are long days. two full classes back to back along with staying up late the night before. afterwards, end of the week recap again with a and k. we drank a lot of wine, read through books, heard k sing for the first time (which was magical), and danced to lounge music on the tiny studio living room floor. 

me

i always feel so emotionally discombobulated inside. its more funny than not. 

sound of music

i'm listening to "something good." that musical is special spcecial