little by little, and also in great leaps

yesterday night

a devendra banhart and gilberto gil concert at the hollywood bowl with liz and linda. i've been so lackluster lately, but this show really really inspired me. 

today

i went to work in the wood shop for a bit and it felt so good to be back in there.

something fantastic:

ted: ideas worth spreading

jasper johns

I never had any true affection tied with jasper johns and his art work, but today, we were discussing his "painted bronze," and i had a surge of emotion and felt such poetry and thoughtfulness in his intent. 

also,

when you actively search for syncronism, they seem to appear everywhere and all the time

always.

( a stefan sagmeister graphic)

noon

getting plucked. yesterday, my mom and i were talking about an old friend i had from high school. Today, she too was getting plucked. i hadn't seen her in 8 years. 

synchronism

i like looking for them. and imagine the reasons why

all day

attempting, and attempting again to start and finish my essay.

things of interest

legendary graphic designer  Stefan Sagmeister and his "things i have learned in my life so far" project. his 21 things

1. complaining is silly. either act or forget

2. thinking life will be better in the future is stupid. i have to live now.

3. being not truthful works against me

4. helping other people helps me

5. organizing a charity group is surprisingly easy

6. everything i do always comes back to me

7. drugs feel great in the beginning and become a drag later on

8. over time i get used to everything and start taking it for granted

9. money does not make me happy

10. traveling alone is helpful for a new perspective on life

11. assuming is stifling

12. keeping a diary supports my personal development

13. trying to look good limits my life

14. worrying solves nothing

15. material luxuries are best enjoyed in small doses

16. having guts always works out for me

17. actually doing the thing i set out to do increases my overall level of satisfaction

18. everybody thinks they are right

19. low expectations are a good strategy

20. if i want to explore a new direction professionally, it is helpful to try it out for myself first

21. everybody who is honest is interesting.

one more thing

stefan sagmeister addressing students. i like chapter two. this is inspiring.

i keep

thinking about that kitty

i live with the impossible ocean and silence bleeds me dry

(photographer: linda scheynius)

(un)coincidence

passing by the same person on the freeway as yesterday. inexplicable. 

morning

school to return a dvd, and sneaking a peek at the new toys

afternoon

at ganahl lumber to buy wood, oil, and wax

late afternoon

lunch with family

evening

met with susan. tried to save a lost kitten. 

my love, i returned from travel and sorrow

(photographer: zhanmou)

tonight

dinner with nancy

verb

unecessarily moping

i love all the things there are, and of all fires, love is the only inexhaustible one; and that's why i go from life to life, from guitar to guitar, and i have no fear of light or of shade and almost being earth myself i spoon away at infinity

8:30am

drawing insects and playing with a tarantula named elvira

7:30pm

an eames demetrios lecture

 there is rapture on the lonely shores

11:00 am

onigiri for lunch

3:00 pm

watching videos of the bauhaus theatre

8:00 pm

lots of food and cooking going on in the house.

things my brother made:

tuna tartare

toasted sourdough with olive oil, fresh parmesan, and thyme

dill, cucumber, & yogurt dressing

what i made:

turkey meatballs with golden raisins and pine nuts. recipe again from orangette. so tasty! best with the chilled yogurt dressing. this really is so yummy. highly recommended.

 they were so alive with me that they lived half my life and will die half my death

saturday morning

baking party cookies. martha stewart's molasses sandwich cookies 

later

nancy's 80's themed birthday party. i thrifted a bright yellow blazer and had big big big hair. great fun!

today

my shoulder is recovering from an aggressive WII tennis match

dinner

i made a simple and delicious chickpea salad with lemon and parmesan (recipe from orangette). a great summer dish.

it is necessary to judge those hands stained

10am

off to taschen bookstore for their warehouse sale. i was hoping for good photography books but came home with an amazing deal on these:

1) designing for the 21st century

2) 1000 lights

3) design now

noon

red velvet cake at jack & jill. death by cake.

noon and beyond

browsing william sonoma and anthropologie

now

re-run episode of iconoclast with mike myers and deepak chopra

tonight

i hope dancing is involved.

even after all this time, the sun never says to the earth, you owe me

6:30pm

another dinner night with family and relatives. multiple course japanese meal. tasty. 

in these lonely regions, i have been powerful

9am

zoo- extreme "face melting off" heat. otherwise, fun!  i purchased an annual pass- now an official member of the la zoo. gleeful. 

7pm

a hearty bbq with family and relatives

but his heart was in a constant, turbulent riot

watching

1)pucker up: the fine art of whistling

2)movies by ray and charles eames

the difference

between "getting over it" and "giving up" 

tomorrow

the zoo!

the truth is that we change without ceasing, and that the state itself is nothing but change

(photographer: i'm not sure)

afternoon

in class. discussing einstein and the theory of relativity.

epiphanies

none, i think.

and sometimes when the night is slow. the wretched and the meek, we gather up our hearts and go, a thousand kisses deep

fathers day

the whole world smells of meat cooking on an open grill.

also,

i am open to new book recommendations! good ones. 

she had tried so hard to live. 

a favorite, photographer: debbie carlos

yesterday

had dinner at le pain and watched the premiere of savage grace with linda. what a movie! i did a little background research later last night. i am so intrigued that i am considering further exploration.

later yesterday

re-read my written diary entries from 1999. wrote a new entry inside. marked june 13, 2008. i see definitive changes in me.

today

lazily indulging in my favorite past time. lying in bed all day with my feet rested against the cool wall reading a new book and slurping on iced coffee.

reading

in the woods by tana french. i haven't read a real crime novel since the alienist. but this one is great.

listening 

to re-runs of this american life. oh, ira- sigh

my heart is ever at your service.

beautiful, colorful textiles

today: 

sketching and browsing books

this moment:

scouring the internet for eric ripert interviews. i have deep admiration for the man.

he serves all, who dares be true

9am-2pm

sketching, sketching. at the natural history museum

in the news

'unicorn' deer spotted in italian nature preserve. it elates me when fantasy meets reality. i disregard it as a disability, but perhaps a good hiccup made by you know who. 

this, i love

Littlewood's Law states that individuals can expect a miracle to happen to them at the rate of about one per month

feeling

utterly restless

i raised my eyes and you were there. a fleeting vision, the quintessence of all that's beautiful and rare.

10:00am

my brother made breakfast. a culinary concoction of corn, potatoes, onions and bacon relished with avocado and blue cheese. a salient crisp and toasted raisin bread on the side.- buttered. it was very good.

i, at any rate, am convinced that he does not throw dice

photographer: marlaina read

forever

fixated and obsessed with skies

everything is as it should be

10:00am

morning breakfast with best girl friends at the alcove. yogurt, fruit & fresh granola

3:00pm

watching danza serpentina on youtube

11:40pm

having just read isadora duncan's personal life section on wikipedia. 

just, um, uh,- uh. whoa. wow. 

reading:

1. deepak chopra's The Book of Secrets

2. marisa de los santos love walked in

i want to walk with you and know, know the reasons why; i want to walk inside your shattered heart to ask the lost dust, the shy, dispersed jasmine.

(photos by: hirano takaci)

things that are moving:

1. photo-  love diary (littledeaddick) of madi and patrick 

2. photos by ye rin mok (most especically portraits2)

3. and amazing hirano takaci

reading:

why we love

fragrance:

chanel gardenias. on an endless search for the perfect gardenias scent. for whatever reason,  its a potent reminder of my youth and its warm summers. chanel gardenias come so close. so close.  so, this- an unstoppable, massively guilt ridden purchase for an all encompassing smell of my memories

feeling: 

unsubstantially tristful

none of these dreams was in vain,  however.

auschwitz, poland 2004

zakopane mountains, poland 2004: an unpredicted hike

8:00pm

developed couple sets film, untouched for a couple years in the bottom of my drawer. it is good to see images of things my younger self wanted my older self to remember. 

i am grateful to the earth

for having waited

for me

when sky and sea came together

like two lips touching

for that's no small thing, no?-

to have lived

through one solitude to arrive at another,

to feel oneself many things and recover wholeness

today:

drawing in the morning and frozen yogurt in the evening.

everyday:

flying by

sublime sublime sublime:

neruda

here i found love. it was born in the sand,

it grew without voice, touched the flintstones

of hardness, and resisted death

i no longer recall when you begin:

you were before love.

helmut newton. in yves saint laurent's iconic le smoking suit

yesterday

the amazing yves saint laurent passed away. He, was Grand.

in you is the illusion of each day

you arrive like the dew to the cupped flowers

3. start cycling [x]

8:00am

a small bicycling journey along the river bank. 

4:30pm

at the movie theater for sex and the city

8:00pm

watching extreme makeover home edition. it makes me cry.

an important historical fact for my life reference:

James, Jesse

'the greatest robber of the wild west died in 1882. He was shot in the back by a gang member while he was at home adjusting a picture.'

glorious music:

g-string orchestra