you can't make everyone happy

hi there

just came back from short weekend in sf

lists of things i've been doing

reading (started a new book, "the story of edgar sawtelle")

watching movies 

obsessing over gregory house

sleeping really late and waking up really late (not normal)

a bit of running (more 'thinking' about running)

conjuring up personal sewing and illustration projects 

chatting with friends

cleaning & organizing

contemplating what i am doing with life (ha)

other things

happy, but also in the state of perpetual melancholy (this is possible) the time in between terms is always relaxing, but places me in a state of emotional hysteria- as i am given plenty of time to spend with me and myself. there is a whole variety of things that keeps me up- a bouquet of psychosis. sometimes i deal with myself better when i am engaged in some goal-oriented activity- easy to sort things through that way, but also not always so nourishing.

strange

(recently) i can't bear to lay in bed awake for sleep to take me over. so instead, i stay up doing all sorts of unnecessary and futile things till my eyes can't keep open. 

tomorrow

a short hike and lunch with L

things i am looking forward to

chicago to see my brother, start of school, and the activities that la offers during the summer